I was sitting here playing a game and this thought came to me about rules. I recently changed shifts with someone at work and didn't think it was a problem but was told yesterday that i actually had to ask a higher up it if could do that. What, at that point, was that i had all these rules, a ton of rules that were given to me by someone else. I understand that there has to be some structure and each company as well as each person has rules as to how things are going to be but what the realization that i had was that i had been trying to break the rules that had been imposed on me. I thought about all the things that the creator had created and i realized that he hadn't followed any rules, all you have to do is look at the animal kingdom and some of the strangest most beautiful things weren't created by any rules at all. Not that he went willy nilly about anything, he created everything so that it could survive on the planet. So why was i consumed with so much constraint? I allowed it i guess and now i was breaking free from all of the rules. I figured as long as i followed the laws of the land, as i call them, not killing anyone, not hurting anyone, not imposing any danger upon anyone, then why was i following these rules. You see, in my day, i was told a woman had three choices in careers, a nurse, a teacher, or a hairdresser. I tried the hair dresser. That was another rule, i was allowed to quit high school and at that time i heard that all high school drop outs could only become hair dressers. It wasn't for me. So i did other things that didn't pay well but i was good at. And not to sound rude, and i hope this doesn't offend anyone, but the jobs i took were not up to what i was capable of nor were they what i wanted to do. Not that i am in a pickle and don't know what to do, i guess i always wanted to break the rules but wasn't doing a great job at it because of all the conflict that was going on inside. I wanted to be free to do what i wanted to do, and i suppose that is what i am doing. I just didn't realize it. To be free. I wasn't a child, but i kept myself all tied up with all these rules, that kept me thinking that i needed to be manipulated and controlled just like a child. I remember a few months ago asking on this forum how do i begin to feel like an adult and Brent's answer was to start telling myself that i was an adult. At the time i didn't notice any difference but i do now, i wanted and am testing my own adulthood by making my own decisions. Sounds strange i know, but to me, i have achieved something that i thought was never going to happen. Even little things, like when i would go shopping for groceries, i would want to buy something and this thought would pop into my head that i am not allowed to have that. It doesn't matter where i learned that, just that now i know and am aware of it. So i guess i am attaining my freedom, and will continue to gain more every day.

Good insight here - one way to look at subconscious belief systems is as unspoken self-imposed rules that govern your life.

Fortunately, since you made those rules, you can change or break them too...you just need to get to theta and know what you're doing

-Brent